Life is hard to balance at times …… (14 and 13 weeks out update)

Oh my gosh guys! Sorry life is definitely busier than usual but I’ll try my best to keep it updated! haha.

Between the training, cooking, eating (all I feel like I do is eat btw haha), work and everything else it is all I can do to just come home and not pass out right away …

Now, if you have been following me on instagram, you’ll know that my weight keep fluctuating and this is something I personally find extremely annoying and I know I need to learn not to let it get to me. … with that being said its a good thing I take measurements now and pictures every week because that’s the only way I’m really seeing a difference. But its a good difference! =)

Week 3 (14 weeks out from show.)

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Going into week 4 (13 weeks out from show)

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hardest part so far? … cardio on those damn stairs.. I tell ya we have a love/hate relationship right now .. and cravings OMG… I just want a PB and J lol….

MY CRAVING CRUSHERS:

  • Gum – deserts
  • mints
  • sparkling water!!! – look for no sugar/sodium/ nothing…
  • tea
  • spices

ooh that  list looks sad lol.

OH also… I have the best boyfriend ever! we past 4 years on the 4th of july … he got me this!!

oh…so … beautiful….

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I survived Week 1 ! ( 15 Weeks Out)

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HAHA, I like the title of this blog post …. Ok so you may be asking, How did it go? OMG.. talk about some up’s and down’s haha.

  • Diet – I’ve never ate so much food in my life. Its funny when people think you don’t eat and you’re starving yourself to get to this competition weight .. ( even my parents kind of gave me the look of “are you eating?” a few times since I’ve started this goal). When you actually eat whole complete foods and start eating what your body needs to survive instead of things you “want” or “think you need” that’s when you start so see some huge changes. When you actually start focusing on the nutrition side and meeting macronutrients, you’d be surprised how much food you can actually consume and how little or filling an appropriate amount of calories can be and feel. I’m currently carb cycling and hoping to learn more about this ( wanting to do a blog post on it too, but not till I fully understand it since I don’t want to put out information that isn’t correct to you guys) so my calories kind of go up and down. One day it will be around 1700 cal with higher carb down to 1350 cal with higher fat …. its seriously a science and I’m lucky I have a coach through this because I don’t really know what to look for or know what’s working and what isn’t yet.

What kinda of food am I eating? ? TONS of protein haha.

  • Protein – chicken, turkey, beef, shakes
  • Carbs – Oats, Banana, Brown and white rice, Quinoa, Potatoes and Sweet potato
  • Veggies – Kale, green beans, broccoli, cauliflower, asparagus, romaine and spinach.
  • Fats- mostly almond butter and a little bit coming from my dressing for salads , some avocado, some raw nuts like almonds or cashews.
  • Other Items – Low sugar ketchup (so happy I can have this haha, I’m a ketchup freak and I found one that has only 1 g sugar and 5 calories …and he said go for it!) … he’ll probably take it away closer to comp though, mustard, salsa, any spices (Ms. dash is a staple since its salt free), stevia, tea, every once in a while I will drink a cup of black coffee with stevia but its just not that same as a Starbucks haha , BCAA, lemon juice.
  • water water water- a gallon a day I try to shoot for.

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Pretty simple, yet can be boring at times. I understand sugar addiction even more now and never realized how much I crave bread. Everyday its something random that I’m craving too, one day its fruit, anther I seriously just want a cookie lol.

Things I have been using to bust the cravings…

  • Gum, Deserts gum is amazing haha.. but I have everything from minty, fruity, to cinnamon roll flavor.
  • Tea- you should see how many tea boxes I have right now, ridiculous.
  • I have a few different flavors of BCAA (branch chain amino acids) that help me when I want something sweet
  • Using different seasonings and spices, like I stated before, I have about every Ms. Dash made, and I have tried some weird concoctions on some things you wouldn’t think taste good but do… like tomato, basil, garlic flavor on a cut of steak… waaa?? … I’ve also accepted my “desert time” is in the morning with my oats and banana hahha.
  •  I have gummy multi-vitamins too, I usually try not to take them too often or I rotate them between my days since your body has a harder time digesting a gummy rather than a softgell (plus they have a little more sugar too) but on my lower carb day … it definitely keeps me on track and from losing my shi*.
  • When all else fails… Win and doubt, add more veggies…

So now this next part I thought wasn’t going to be the hard part… HA! I was wrong!! O so wrong!!! Workouts. HOLY SHIT. pardon my language … but Holy…

These workouts are probably the most taxing and difficult workouts I’ve ever done! I figured since I usually spent 2 hours in the gym every day I would have had this part down, I was more nervous about how the diet was going to change. . . . Ha! Rude awakening let me tell you!!

So when I met with my coach to go over everything … he kinda looked at me and was like “lets see how hard you work!” … oh sweet baby Jesus please save me came through my mind…. haha

Its amazing  how a few little tweaks and upping the number or sets and reps and lowering the weights can make THAT much of a difference in not only the difficulty and intensity along with the changes I saw within just the first week!

What do the workouts look like? Its a rotation of 6 days a week, weights and HITT cardio. with 1 rest day (which is low carb day and you’d think I would look forward to rest day, but since I don’t get my endorphins pumping and then with low carbs – which I can see why its low carb since your body mainly needs that “fuel” for your workouts … its just a rough day in general.) … and I may have snapped at Evan ( my boyfriend) a few times and its only week 2…ops! He’s a keeper if he lasts till October.. =)

 

last week :

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This week:

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What I’m noticing with my mentality and overall mindset….

So as I’ve wanted to give into my cravings or wimp put on a few sets of a certain exercise. …. you almost have to pep talk yourself back up. Its so much of a mind game than it is a “prep” its crazy that I’m actually having a struggle with this because this is like the NUMBER ONE thing I honestly believe has a major impact on your life in general. I’ve written a few blogs on the power of positive thinking, and always try to see the positive side to everything. I love motivational speakers, quotes and if you ask me what the big “secret” is … I will always say “You have to believe in yourself and that you can do it.. no doubts” But omg, I almost feel like I wasn’t ready for this next level of belief I guess. I have so much coming towards me all at once that everything I do or don’t do is going to affect my future. And that realization is a bit scary, not going to lie. But a quote I absolutely LOVE and I keep telling myself … “How bad do you want it?” The rest of the quote is below but when I feel like things are too hard, or I just want to be done or quit (Yes, I’m admitting I’ve wanted to quit a few times… Hell I’ve been at this for a year now and I’m only human)… I always ask myself this. And along with that I remind myself … “if it excites you scares the crap out of you at the same time, its probably something you should do”….

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With that being said I’m still going strong and I will do my best to keep you guys updated on everything.

I feel like I’m on the right path, I feel like everyday more and more people come to me and either share their success with me and tell me that I’ve helped them or inspired them and that is like the #1 reason I love what I’m doing. This makes me want to push myself harder than before and its weird because I get that drive from not only making myself better but from you guys. So keep sending me your crazy gym and food prep snap chats because I love them. =)

Some opportunities that have came my way… not sure where they will lead, but anxious to find out!

  • I moved jobs into a supplement store, leading me to meet tons of new people with experience doing what I’m on track to do. Whether they have competed, helped people get to compete or even just meeting people who are just starting out on their weight loss. I always get the “you probably don’t understand” look for the more overweight crowd and when I show them a picture or tell them my story, I can tell it has an effect when I mention to them if I can do it so can they, they just have to believe they can… This is also how I meet my coach. =)
  • I have been offered and audition for a supplement company to be a model and rep their products when I finally get down to that weight and “look” – they even might come to my show and support/watch me!
  • I’ve been asked numerous times if I’m a trainer at my gym, and then the manager asked me if I would like to be one and even offered to pay for the schooling to get a personal training certificate.
  • Tons of people have commented on how much progress I’ve made just in the last few months … ad to keep going.
  • This blog was nominated for an award that sadly didn’t get, but still being nominated is something huge in my mind.

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So what do I want o do? HA I have no clue, just following life where it leads me …

  • personal trainer
  • coach for competitions
  • personal and competition chef
  • fitness model and/or rep
  • competitor ( pro card? )
  • registered dietitian
  • weight loss and health coach

some of those ideas seem so far fetched in my mind right now (but looking back, being 210lbs.. I would have said standing on stage in a bikini was far fetched ha.. ) , but I know if I keep pushing myself towards this, it may become a possibility …. I just have to believe it is .

 

 

Things to Jazz up a Smoothie!

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I don’t know about ya’ll, but I like smoothies, especially when I can put all kinds of goodies in it and have it still taste AMAZING! They usually are grate for the morning when your in a rush to make something and you can just pour a bunch of berries into the blender add a little ice and almond milk and Ta-da !

Here are some ingredients you may have used before but there are also some others that most people wouldn’t think of putting into a smoothie! Happy Blending!! =)

Fruits – pretty much any but here are some favorites.

  • Banana
  • Apple
  • Grapes
  • Blueberries, raspberries, blackberries
  • oranges
  • grapefruit
  • cuties (tangerines)
  • pomegranate seeds
  • dragon fruit
  • kiwi
  • pear
  • pineapple

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Veggies

  • Spinach
  • Kale
  • Any greens
  • Carrots
  • Greens powder mixes
  • Algae
  • Beets
  • celery

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Fats

  • Chia seed
  • Flax Seed
  • Avocado
  • Coconut oil or shreds
  • Nut butters – almond, sunflower, peanut, hazelnut etc..
  • shaved almonds or nut pieces (walnut, pecans, pistachios)

Protein

  • Protein powders (vanilla or strawberry is my favorite)
  • Tofu

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Other

  • yogurt
  • Almond / Coconut/ Hemp/ sunflower seed milk
  • cocoa or cocoa nibs
  • Spices – ginger, nutmeg, cinnamon, cloves
  • pumpkin puree ( unsweetened)
  • Stevia – this is a miracle worker lol… if something isn’t sweet enough this is a sugar substitute that’s calorie and carb free and its from a plant!
  • Oats or oatmeal
  • Cereal and granola
  • Grits and quinoa
  • Dates, dried fruit, cranberries, raisins.

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Be someones Inspiration

So… Not sure how to even start this blog post, but I’m just going to say this.

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You are going to have people that support you and anything you can possibly dream up..and then there are those that .. well, just don’t get it. They either think you’re annoying for posting how awesome you feel after your workout, or seem to not want you to do well. ( or they don’t want to see you doing better than them as it seems).

Going from being bigger (see how I didn’t say fat ) to now being pretty fit I get a lot of inspirational stuff from tons of people, this is the part I LOVE and in all honesty, keeps me going at times. The letters I get from people I don’t even know, friends from high school and college, family and everyone asking for help or even telling me to keep on keeping on. lol. I love the random snapchats of peoples “healthy meals” they send me, I love the gym selfies telling me ” killed myself at the gym” … and I love that more and more people are realizing instead of being “annoyed” or seem put out by someone’s choices to be healthy ..but to learn how to embrace them, praise them for their hard work and maybe even join the club. I feel like we judge each other too much sometimes and I don’t see why we cant all just be ourselves.

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We as people like encouragement,  to be thanked and rewarded, to have that person by your side no matter what. Why not be that person, to be the inspiration. Sure my journey is my journey and will always be, I will always be pushing myself to new limits now..  but when you start changing other peoples journeys and they start looking up to you or they decide not to give up because you’ve inspired them. THAT right there my friends is what its ALL ABOUT and it’s such an amazing thing I cant or don’t know how to even explain it.

 

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And its kind of ironic too. Now that I’m not “big” anymore, I still have feelings of not being accepted. This is my own struggle which I battle all the time and an still learning how to handle. But its the opposite now. Instead of feeling overwhelmed and that people are looking at me because “I’m fat” and I don’t know what I’m doing… I have people look at me in the gym and assume “oh this is easy for her, she probably been small her whole life” I see them watching, staring or whatever you want to call it… but guess what it doesn’t matter….. I’m at the gym for me, the gym is my “me” time. Blare some music and do your own thing, don’t worry about what others are doing, how much they are bench pressing because … Who’s journey is this again ? Yours. LIVE IT.

There are those people that don’t know me and see the possibilities they themselves can make or have if they believe in themselves. There are those who do know me and basically have watched this whole process take place (and boy its been a few years- so don’t get discouraged when it doesn’t “come off right away” it wont… it took time to put it on, its going to take time to take it off. ) But to learn that piece of acceptance of yourself, to actually learn to love yourself and fall in love with the process that is taking place. To not be scared to fail, and learn from that failure, to get back up when knocked down and to not let other peoples opinions flood your mind with negativity … because guess what, they’re only one thing –  an opinion.

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And for those that “don’t get it” or annoyed with you and your journey, guess what, its not their life nor their journey so it doesn’t matter! They don’t need to understand why you are the way you are, if you are true to yourself and just focus on you and what you want out of YOUR life.. life will be amazing. People will walk  away, others will stay and enjoy the ride with you. =) promise you this.

Stay Strong my Lovelies! – always remember two things :

  1. Your stronger and more powerful than your think. Mind. Body. Soul.
  2. You’re beautiful, no matter what! =)

 

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My Current Meal and Supplement Plan (Fitness Comp Prep)

A lot of people have been asking what my diet looks like, what I eat, when I eat and how they can get their metabolism running faster… the key is to eat super clean foods every 3 hours so your body doesn’t even have a chance to feel hungry. I also focus more on counting my macronutrients (protein, carb, fiber and fat) more than my calories..

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… so here it is!

I always make sure I drink 8oz water right when I  wake up.

Supplements at waking:

  • 200-300 mg caffeine (or a pre-workout, depending on my mood)
  • 500-1000 mg Green Tea Extract
  • 1-2 g Acetyl-L-Carnitine
  • 1000 mg White Kidney Bean Carb Intercept

Meal 1: (don’t wait more than 30 min to eat after you wake up)

  • 1/2 cup Steel Cut oats prepared with water.
  • Splash of almond milk
  • 1/2 banana cut up inside it for sweetness
  • sprinkle of cinnamon =)

***This is usually the time of day I workout (around 60-90 min)***

Meal 2: (Post-workout)

  • 1 scoop protein powder of choice. Mixed with 10 oz unsweetened Almond milk. 1 scoop glutamine powder, 1 scoop greens, 1 scoop carbohydrate blend, and 1 scoop BCAA’s.
  • With other 1/2 of banana.

Supplements :

  • 1 Multi-vitamin
  • 1-2 g L-Carnitine
  • 1000 mg White Kidney Bean Carb Intercept

Meal 3:

  • Medium size salad with 2oz grilled chicken/shrimp or turkey (usually cut into chunks)
  • 1 cup brown rice or quinoa. (or 1/2 baked sweet potato)
  • 10 almonds.

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Supplements :

  • 200-300 mg caffeine
  • 500-1000 mg Green Tea Extract
  • 1-2 g Acetyl-L- Carnitine

Meal 4:

  •  1 scoop protein powder of choice. Mixed with 10 oz unsweetened Almond milk. 1 scoop glutamine powder, 1 scoop greens, and 1 scoop BCAA’s.
  •   1/4 avocado
  • 1 cup of  carrots or 3 celery sticks (or both haha)

Meal5:

  • 3oz Grilled Salmon/Tilapia (seasoned with Ms. Dash – no salt)
  • 10 spears of Asparagus
  • As big of a dinner salad as I want! …. (Dressings I use are all oil based – usually Newman’s own or Annie’s Brand.) about 2tbsp. I also add salsa sometimes too (its healthier than dressings…)

Supplements:

  • 2-3 g CLA
  • 2-3 g Fish oil

Meal 6:

  • 1 scoop protein powder of choice. Mixed with 10 oz unsweetened Almond milk. 1 scoop glutamine powder, 1 scoop greens, and 1 scoop BCAA’s.
  • 1/2 cup nuts or seeds (almonds, cashews, pecans, pumpkin, sunflower)

Supplements before bed:

  • 2-3 g CLA
  • 2-3 g Fish Oil
  • 2-3 g Glutamine

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WATER WATER WATER ALL DAY!!!!!! DRINK UP

**The supplements and meal plan that I’m on is geared towards my goals for preparing for the fitness competition. I’m not stating that people should take these supplements because everyone is different and have different goals. This is just what I do one a every day basis and it works for me. **

Goal Setting 101

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Why set goals? Well setting goals and actually keeping yourself accountable to those goals are two different things. So we’re going to talk about some basics you should always be thinking about when setting specific goals and then, how to actually keep those goals until your reach it. And then you learn to set even more or higher goals as each goal becomes achievable. =)

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1. Why? think of why you want to achieve a specific goal. Your why should make you cry….. and not necessarily cry in a bad way, but it should bring you happiness. It should make you feel excited and maybe a little intimidated too. But you also need to learn to channel that fear or since of intimidation into fuel to drive you to complete whatever your goal is. I’m a list maker so I like to make lists of why I want to achieve a goal…. I know it sounds really weird and maybe stupid to some but when you actually sit down and write out like 10 reasons WHY you want to achieve something, it makes you more aware of where you’re at and what you still need to do to accomplish your goal. I like to dig deeper too, rather than just thinking of basic things most people think of first right away. Example: My fitness competition; yeah I could wright I want to be skinny and fit and feel good…. but that’s a pretty “basic” reason why people think of when you set a goal towards health and weight…. instead I dig deeper. One of my reasons is to prove to myself that I can loose weight/be fit and healthy without having to worry about calories, to not feel like I’m obsessed with what I put in my body and to be confident in my own skin. To prove that I can do this the “right way” and not feel like I’m starving myself of feel like I’m doing something harmful to my body. To feel like I wont have to “suck it in” in every picture I take and to not have that constant worry about if I look “chubby”. …….. ok, that was more than one reason … but ya’ll get the drift. Dig deep, find reasons that you are afraid to tell someone or maybe afraid to admit. (also, when you have a list, put it somewhere where you will see it on a regular basis, it will remind you and you’ll be more inclined to strive for your goal)

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2. Set large goals and then mini goals to achieve that larger goal. Basically as I wrote above, you don’t want to just write “lose weight” . Yes that can be your larger goal, but make smaller goals to get there too because if that’s your only goal, your probably going to get frustrated when you only lose 5 lbs and then give up. So with in that goal make a “loose 5 lbs by _____” date. Or a “be able to run a mile by the end of the month” . And the more in detail you get the easier it is to actually start to see that goal taking place (this is called visualization… ) Start to visualize what you want…. sounds crazy but it helps.

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3. Reward yourself and be proud of everything you HAVE accomplished. when you meet each mini goal, reward yourself (preferably not with food) but maybe go get a pedicure …or I like to buy workout clothes so ill go get a new sports bra or something… but keep it small. Also have a bigger goal for when you accomplish that BIG goal, have a BIGGER reward. (mine for when I’m done with the competition is to get my first tattoo =D ) ….. Also, say you don’t lose that 5lbs the first week but you lose a pant size or you just feel better health and energy wise, recognize that and always be proud of what you have accomplished. Keep pushing towards your goal and it will soon come. Patience is a virtue.

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4. Make your goals SMART… most of you probably know this… but here is what a SMART goal is:

  • S       Specific
  • M     Measurable
  • A     Attainable
  • R     Realistic
  • T     Time-bound

So obviously it has to be realistic, you cant make a goal to be 6’5 and be a famous basketball player when you’re 4’11… its just not going to happen. You have to have a goal in mind and a plan of how you want to achieve it and then you have to set a date because … sorry but how many people set a goal at the beginning of the year to “be healthier” and then they are good for about 2 weeks and then give up…. that’s because their goal wasn’t set into action with the SMART goal in mind and they didn’t make a “plan” … its all about the plan and path you make….

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5. Make your goals POSITIVE! when writing your goals…. don’t write “I don’t want to be fat” …. that’s in a negative context. Wright them in a positive one and say ” I’m going to be healthy and fit”. Same with the way you think as well, don’t think a goal is unattainable because in all honesty you pretty much can do anything you put your mind to if you set the right goals towards that direction. If a goal seems unattainable at the time (and believe me I’ve been there) that is why you set the “mini” goals to help it seem  like that goal isn’t to far fetched. When I was a size 14 did I ever think I would fit into a size 5? Hell no! HAHA it seemed like that was going to take forever and in all honesty seemed impossible at the time which can be overwhelming… That’s because my thinking was in the wrong mindset and I was only thinking of .. “omg, I’m fat and I need to lose weight” Once I changed my thinking and started focusing on how fitness made me feel … (which was happy and full of energy) that’s when the weight started dropping off… and once it starts going… man its like a high. You start to get excited and you want to keep going, and then someone comments and you get this giddy feeling and feeling of pride and accomplishment and it just keeps continuing so on and so forth. Its your job is to keep setting those goals to reach new goals once you have achieved one.

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6. The buddy system. Do you have a buddy with the same goal or maybe a similar one? If not, FIND ONE! They are the best! I have build a friendship with one girl in particular (whose name is Amanda ironically haha)  through this whole journey and I know that if I didn’t have her this goal would not be the same. She was a bigger girl too and we first just started going to the gym together.. just to help us stay accountable and not give up. But as we keep dropping weight that’s when we decided to do the fitness competition together… so were both striving for the same goal. We hold each other accountable, we bitch to each other when were sick of drinking protein shakes and we still have learned to laugh through the whole process. We have both talked about it being too hard and wanting to pull out of the whole thing. But we continue to look at the bigger picture and realize where we have came from. We continue to share when we have reached one of our “mini” goals and/or just something positive and exciting happening in our lives. Needless to say, find someone who has the same or similar goal and it will make it easier not only with keeping yourself accountable but find someone with that same positive attitude towards it that can pull you up when you may be a little down.

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and most important reason to be fit is (drumroll please! )

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=)

Now quit reading and go set some goals!!

UPDATE: OMG Life is Hectic!

Hey guys! Just a little update because I feel like I’ve been slacking on my blog (sorry about that). . . . But A LOT has been happening! In the midst of all the holidays to boot, here is what’s been going on ….. about a month ago I got a part time job at The Vitamin Shoppe (whooo! right up my ally right?!?) Super excited about that. And within that first month I got promoted to a full time position and as a mini manager basically. (go me)…

So I’m in the middle of leaving/ or basically stepping down at my other job (Bath and Body Works)  and still holding 2 jobs without driving myself nuts and wearing myself out.  With 12 hour days sometimes, 45- 55 hours a week can kill ya when you don’t have a day off for 2 weeks straight and your trying to keep a gym and blog schedule in tact.. as you can see a few things may have fallen off the wagon. . .

ALSO…..my trainer got transferred to another location, so therefore I have no trainer anymore and have been trying to do this competition training on my own. (been slacking at making it to the gym all the time … not even going to lie) Just the exhaustion from both jobs and running back and forth to the both of them has messed up my gym schedule for sure. I didn’t completely fall off the wagon with this but I have definitely pushed snooze a few times when my alarm goes off for me to go to the gym … haha. But another exciting thing … haven’t messed up on my eating and diet plans… … I actually decided to try out veganism for a while, and so far I feel amazing! I fall asleep better, wake up easier (usually right before my alarm now), my skin is practically clear again, my hair is shinier, my nails are actually growing?!?! (they never grow!) So that’s an awesome thing in my opinion. Cant wait to see how I feel after a month…

Evan (my boyfriend) is a hunter and eats meat like its his job.. haha but he is very supportive and is supportive of me with whatever I decide to do, which is helpful. I’m lucky to have him… =) We kinda complete each other with his manly man grilling and I’m over here with my “hippy salad” as he would call it hahah.  But all in all things are going good, just SUUUUUUUUUUPER BUSY!

So with that said, Ill try to get back to posting as often as I was. and I hope ya’ll are doing good as well!