I DID IT! My Journey through my First Fitness Bikini Competition

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Sorry this post has taken me so long to write, I’ve been going through a little soul searching after my show (which I plan on doing another post on that next … but its been an interesting ride , that’s for sure! )

BUT anyways…. Well…. I DID IT!!! And holy crap was it hard! Probably one of the hardest things I’ve done so far, and funny thing is I cant wait to do another!!!

How was it? Really fun yet stressful and exhausting too. But it was all worth it, wanna know why???? Because I placed Top 5 in both the classes I entered in!!! =)

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So going into this competition, quite honestly I wasn’t expecting to “win” anything because in my mind, I had already won with myself losing 85 pounds. And my thought process was if I won something , then hell, more power to me! Ideally my goal was to make it to a competition and I had done just that.

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Back stage during the show, fixing up spray tans and getting oily and ready to step on stage I was actually pretty calm. I have a  major in theatre so the stage isn’t really scary to me it was more of the omg I just don’t want to trip on my heals or forget my poses/transitions (which I did  hahaha).

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During first callouts, when they called my number I almost remember looking down at my number to make sure that was in fact the number they were calling. As I walked forward the look on my coaches face was priceless, as he nudged my posing coach and automatically grabbed his camera. That moment right there is one of the reasons I’m going to do another show in the future. You could see that he was very proud and excited that they called my number, especially since it was my first show. Then the second class I entered in they had called out 4 numbers and then who’s do they call next? MINE! so I made 1st callouts in both the classes I entered in! (first call outs a pretty much placing the top 5) – which was funny at the time because I didn’t realize that’s how it worked so I thought they were just calling my number to call my number hahaahah.

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As time goes on, and people start coming in the door for the show, we all start talking about the treats we brought for afterwards. Some made cupcakes and such…. I made a little something called slutty brownies. what are slutty brownies you may ask? Amazing!! …one layer of cookie dough, one layer of Oreo (I used cookie dough Oreos) and a layer of brownie. yummmmmmmmmmm and boy were they good.. but they made me sick =(

As the “show” started, (they do pre judging in the morning and then a “show with music and everything towards the night for an audience) My boyfriend and his family came, my aunt and my father came to support me… unfortunately bikini goes on stage last so I got to mingle with them a little before and during the show and you could tell they all were very proud of me.

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My aunt mentioned going to dinner afterwards so I’m back stage thinking about food haha, Evans dad was randomly taking pictures of the “hot” girls and my dad was joking with Evan the entire time about needing to workout , or maybe just needing a beer instead haha. After the show, besides eating 3 of my brownies, a red velvet brownie another competitor made and a macaroon…  we went to Hacienda ( I decided Mexican food was much needed) and I downed 2 chicken enchiladas and a chicken taco… topped with chili and cheese and everything haha. Then when we got home I had a few Oreos dipped in almond butter, a sandwich, and some fig nutons. By this time I was definitely in a food coma.

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The next morning, sine the family has made bbq ribs in front of me like 3 times during this prep I told Evan that’s what I wanted for dinner so he prepared that all day. In the mean time I ate a pumpkin pop tart, a small bowl of spaghetti, 3 waffles with a massive amount of fruit on top and by this time I was sick. .. And by the time the ribs and bbq was read it was all I could do to down one fricken rib.. I felt bad since he cooked all day and I couldn’t even bring myself to eat any of it….

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quite honestly I wasn’t planning on eating all the things I did, I wanted to still keep my hard work at bay but since I basically had some issues with binge eating before (which is what my next post is going to be about ) it was almost like I couldn’t stop. It almost got to the point of embarrassment with how much food I consumed and I wasn’t proud of it at all, yet I still kept eating. . . . as the water weight came back on and some extra weight as well from all the crappy food .. I started feeling lethargic, unmotivated and questioning if this competition was a good idea …

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As these last few weeks pressed on a kept in touch with my coach and telling him how much I’ve gained was a wake up call in itself. I told him I needed more goals to shoot for because a part of me had been prepping for sooooo long for this competition that I almost felt like a “what’s next” moment and didn’t know exactly where to go. But with that being said, I’ve learned my lesion and man , oh man, cardio is SO much harder when you have crap in your system .. it literally does NOTHING to fuel you for a intense workout.

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So all in all, I had a blast, was it worth it still after the aftermath of binging. yes, because I’m still learning to love myself obviously.. and I’m still working on processing how I see myself as well… I know I’m not perfect, no one is. Its your choice to either learn and grow from certain screw ups .. or you can let them overpower and consume you. But untimely its all up to you.

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2 Weeks Out!!

Man o man! Its coming up fast! Not going to lie, I’m a bit nervous but yet I’m excited as well. I’ve been basically preparing for this for a year and I’m only 16 days away from it. Here are my update pictures =)
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Also I must say .. I almost hate my cardio as much as I hate my fish but the combo is helping my stomach get flat. SCORE!

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These past few weeks have been rough, my diet continues to get harder, I keep getting more and more cardio added on, but …. Ive come to realize that its what I asked for, and will it be hard.. hell yes it will, but it will be worth it =)

Its time to get out of my head even when its screaming at me to stop … my heart is what keeps me going. The only excuse you have is the one you make!

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OOOHHHH also I got my jewelry!! and my mom just highlighted my hair so its all coming together quit nicely I think =)

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Turkey, Avocado and Tomato Sandwich

Made this today and it was A-MAZING!

You’ll Need:

1 sandwich thin

1 cup mixed greens of choice

1 small/med tomato

1/2 avocado

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…and anything else ya wanna add … after I ate it I thought of adding onion next time =)

  • Use the avocado as your “dressing” or “mayo” substitute and then just pile on the rest. I ate the whole tomato and had some on the side … its all up to you. Enjoy!

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Benefits of Flax Seeds!

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I love adding flax-seed to my recipes, if you haven’t noticed! So here I’m going to tell you why they are so amazing and some of the benefits they can provide.

So they are most commonly known for providing a good source of Omega-3, but they also have a good source of ALA  (alpha linoleic acid), fiber, and micronutrients. They are known to protect against things such as cancer, heart disease, inflammation, diabetes, arthritis, improving blood sugar, lowering cholesterol and many other things.

You can choose different forms of flax whether you want an flax oil, the whole seed or a seed that’s been ground into to a powder form (ground meal flaxseed). Store in a cool dark and dry place for optimum freshness. ( I keep mine either in the pantry or fridge).

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Flax seed can be added to virtually many dishes because its easy to add into baked goods, oatmeal, smoothies and even meats (like a meatloaf or meatballs).Also, as you shop, you’ll probably notice that more and more things are starting to add it in because it’s so healthy! (yay) It has a light nutty flavor but isn’t too overpowering.

So whether you buy ground meal, whole seeds or an oil, enjoy the benefits and hopefully enjoy the taste! =)

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Keep a Food Journal! – How to

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So knowing what you eat  and how you eat is a good way to assess what goes in, how it makes you feel and ways to look and see what you can or need to change. Often, people munch and snack and think nothing of it but even a granola bar can add up your calorie count for the day from anywhere from 100- 300 calories. . .

When you start a food journal, try not to nit pick everything you eat. (AKA don’t act like your on a diet, and don’t feel guilty if you ate 5 Oreos… or even 12! Just write it down) ….   Write down everything that goes in your mouth down to the drinks you drink and the gym you chew. There is no point in keeping a journal if you don’t truly assess you eating habits and patterns if you don’t write down the truth and your not honest with yourself. So, I think a week is accurate enough, but if you want do it for a couple weeks, make it a week where there is a party or a get together where you know you’ll indulge a little just to see how you act around food.  Look at what you gravitate to. And ask yourself questions similar to this when the week is over and your looking over your journal..

  • What’s your vice- Are you a carb lover, sugar, salt or all 3?
  • Do you tend to mainly eat sweet foods at night, during the day, in the morning?
  • Do you snack while doing other activities? what are the activities your doing?
  • On a tough day at work, do you eat more?
  • What do you choose to eat when your stressed?
  • Do you eat the same foods your children eat or what are you feeding them? (Mac N’ Cheese, fast food, gummy snacks?)
  • Are you scrambled for time when your eating? (trying to squeeze in meals)
  • Are you skipping meals because your too busy?
  • Do you make your lunches for work or do you go out?
  • How often per week/month do you dine out? Breakfast, lunch, and dinner…
  • Do you tend to eat a lot of the same stuff?
  • What are you drinking?
  • How much are you drinking?
  • How much water are you drinking?

Also, some good tips on when your logging ..

  • Once you eat it, drink it, or chew it…. write it down, I’ve carried a food journal for years… I like the little ones because they can fit easily in the smallest purse and barely take up any room.
  • Note the times your eating at.. (2am? 8 am? 11 pm? ) is there a pattern?
  • No one is seeing your journal but you, so be honest…
  • How did you feel when you eat __ food? (happy, nervous, bored, starving etc. )
  • Where you doing anything while you were eating? (tv, driving, watching kids )
  • How big were your proportions… (if your not sure of sizes in ( oz. , liters, etc.) use things as visuals, like the size of a baseball, or the size of the palm of your hand, as big as a quarter piece…)
  • At the end of the day, write down any emotional things that may have happened. ( was it a tough day at work? Did you have the day off? Were you full of energy or tiered all day? )

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So the switch! …

Once you start embarking on a healthier lifestyle, (i.e. eating healthier or noticing your eating a lot of sweets, so your making a point to not eat as much) notice how your logging is changing. Make sure your getting all your nutrients too. Are you eating a lot of protein and no veggies? or are you eating a lot of fruit and not as much protein? Notice different changes, how they make you feel and how your body reacts to certain foods… (this is how I found out I had a dairy allergy, Every time I would eat something with dairy in it, almost always an hour later, my stomach would hurt, my skin would break out the next day too… )

As you start eating healthier… A. you wont crave those Oreos       & B. You wont want to write it down, to therefore you will be less likely to eat it… I love looking at my journal and see nothing but healthy good choices in it. Every once in a while I will have a food that’s in my journal and when I’m going over it, I think ” ahhh why did I eat that!? ” it happens, but the thing is not to dwell or feel guilty .. but rather to notice what your eating and how you can change it! =)

P.s. there are tons of different logs and graphs and outlines on Google if you need somewhere to start ! Happy logging!!!

The Perfect Chipotle Salad

So I personally think this is the perfect salad.. around 400 calories.. and packed with protein.

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Romaine Lettuce

Black Beans

Fajita veggies

Brown Rice (ask them to go light on the rice)

Tomato Salsa

Guacamole

And if you want it spicier … The green salsa only has 15 calories! Plus they have tobacco! YUMM (I like the Milder Jalapeno)

You can find all their nutritional information here as well : http://www.chipotle.com/en-us/menu/nutrition_calculator/nutrition_calculator.aspx

Apple and Almond Butter Wrap

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You’ll need:

Apple of choice, I like gala and golden delicious..

pumpkin pie spice OR cinnamon (choose one) 1/4 tsp.

1 serving of Almond butter (usually about 1 tbsp.)

1   8- inch gluten free tortilla

 

Slice you your apple of choice, sprinkle cinnamon or pumpkin spice on to apple (if you find the apple too hard to chew, you can sauté it in a little cooking spray before you add the spices, that will make it softer)

spread Almond butter onto tortilla, place apple inside and roll it up!

SIMPLE< EAST< FAST< AND ON THE GO BREAKFAST! =) Enjoy.

As far as nutrients.. calories: 334, 11g fat , 58 carb, 9g fiber and 8g. protein

And if you decided to try out my earlier post….. Weight watcher points : 10 points