6 and 5 weeks out

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As time goes on and the days pass a part of me is so nervous and excited and just thrilled I’m actually doing this (no turning back now!) but another part of me is rather relived and happy its almost over. Weird I know. I feel like the whole thing is going to be a bittersweet moment. The joy of being up on that stage (I’ve always loved the limelight ) knowing that I accomplished this goal that in all honestly was WAY harder to complete then I even imagined when I first started. But yet, I can begin to “live” again. Most people don’t realize how hard it is to sit there at a wedding/ baby shower/ anywhere with your 3oz of chicken and 8 asparagus spears while everyone else gorges on things like cake and BBQ ribs in front of you. Me, personally I didn’t mind it, I learned to live through other people, especially Evan hahaha. When we went on our vacation up to Vail I brought all my food and still continued to eat just like I do now, meanwhile he had things like pizza, peach pie, big burgers…… fricken waffle fries.. (not going to lie I wanted a waffle fry haha)

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When a friend of mine was telling me about “off season” and how all the pros of fitness take time off they eat things like pizza, doughnuts and good stuff.. I thought it sounded silly. Since the past 3-4 years through my whole weight loss I literally cannot remember the last time I ate a piece of pizza and since I have been eating clean for this long my thought when she said that to me was “but why would I ruin what I’ve just done??”

Let me just tell you now, I understand completely what she was talking about! through this prep (granted mine was a bit harder because I’ve been on such a prolonged clean diet for so long) … but literally I’ve never craved so much “unhealthy” food in my entire life. I probably pinned about 80 different pumpkin desert recipes on my pinterest the other day- no joke! And the fact that my body is handling whey (dairy) better now makes it even more dangerous!

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So not really sure what’s going to happen at the end of all this to be quite honest. I don’t want to make myself sick (even though I hear that is totally something every competitor does after a show hahah) but I do have a nice little list in my mind of all the different foods I want after this is over. Things like BBQ ribs, pumpkin….. well pumpkin anything!, Oreos, smothered burrito, tostadas, spaghetti … the list goes on…. guess we will see what happens eh?

 

ok without further ado, here are my 6 week and 5 week updates.

6 weeks out

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5 weeks

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I also got to pick out the color of my bikini! How exciting… I was so happy when my coach told me I should do pink or purple (my two favorite colors!!! ) so we opted for one in between its kinda a pinky-purple. … and it matches my gym bag, and my food prep bag haha. LOVE!!! I also was going back and forth between which connectors to use (connectors are the jewels on the bikini that hold it together… I picked the ones I’m going to use.. ya’ll will just have to wait and see which ones heee heee ;P

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9 and 8 weeks

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Ha! Can you tell I’ve been busy and cant keep up with this! haha eh, its life. So here are my 9 and 8 weeks out pics and updates .. its getting difficult and the cravings are seriously insane. You’d think it would be simple not to crave food and just eat your chicken and veggies… but it .. its really not that simple especially since I have a nut butter addiction I’ve decided. hahaha.

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So with this whole competition this I keep saying that I feel like one of the “bigger” girls on the team that I’m on.. a lot of his clients have either done a show before or start off pretty fit to begin with.. and I was telling Evan that I wish there was just maybe one person in the same boat as me, fit, healthy but still had maybe a little to lose still… and this was his response.

…. ps I hate him when he says it like it is lol but I love him so much because it so true … (this isn’t his exact words but its pretty much a few conversations all wrapped into one )      he said, well that’s the difference, that’s why you have to keep pushing, you ARE that person that others will look up to and inspire. You ARE that person that is going to prove to others that its possible if you put your mind to it. BE that person. That’s what you’ve been doing all along anyways and its never stopped you, its never held you back, its supposed to be hard but you continue to learn through it and challenge yourself.

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haha so needless to say he is exactly right I also have realized Im on my own journey, not anyone else’s. I cant compare myself to a girl who is already 120 lbs, I have to compare myself to myself… that’s what this sport is about. Competing with yourself, making yourself better day by day, show by show and continuing to make changes within yourself. There will always be someone ahead of you and there will always be someone behind you in whatever you do. <— remember that!

So here they are .. Ill have another one up soon too since my 7 weeks out is on Thursday haha. Ops! I’m slacking on this blog sorry ya’ll .

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Remember you beautiful no matter what, believe in yourself 100% and do whatever makes you happy. The rest will fall into place! =)

ps if you know me, you know I’m a pumpkin freak! So all this pumpkin spice stuff coming out is KILLING me haha… but I did find Peanut Butter that’s is PUMPKIN SPICE!! BOOM I can eat that hahhaha (just cant kiss my boyfriend on those days since hes allergic haha. )

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Another funny thought … Ive been craving crap I don’t even normally eat .. like doughnuts.. I cant even remember the last time I ate a flippin doughnut .. like a year ago maybe? Buuuuuut, Ive been adding a little dairy into my diet here and there and I’ve been doing ok.. soooo might have to go get some flippin doughnuts at the end of all this! OHHH YEA! .. and by “might have to” I mean .. that’s happening! LMAO.

Booty Workout #2

Figured I hadn’t posted a workout in a while.. this will make your glutes burn! But please during these.. watch your form. Its easy to ingjure your back doing a lot of these.

 

1. Weighted squat -With a DB (dumbbell) or plate hold the weight and let it hang with your arms straight. As you lower into the full squat don’t round your back, arch it and squeeze your butt (glutes) muscles. And come back up! 3 x 15.

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2. Smith Squats – put a desired weight onto the smith machine. As you stand at the bar you want to almost be leaning back into the bar so that when you go down it looks like your sitting in a chair made of air.  Feet at shoulder width apart, lower yourself as low as you can go (lower the better) and always remember to SQUEEZE! =)  As your come back up, don’t lock your knees and stop a the top, go straight back down into the squat until your reps are over. 4×20

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3. Roman Deadlift  – Form… please watch your form! Your back should not be rounded AT ALL! set a desired weight onto the bar, feel shoulder width apart and slowly lower yourself down. Now as you lower yourself down its almost as if your “paint brushing the bar over your legs”. as your bring the bar all the way down to your feet, come back up still keeping that flat back. NO ARCHIG lol. 3 x 15

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4. Cable Kickback – some gyms have a strap specifically for this, some don’t. ( I have my own lol… got it for like $6 bucks at Dicks Sporting Goods …) But you also can use just a basic handle for this too you just have to position your foot so it wont slip out. So strap yourself to the machine, grab ahold of the pole or some cables pulls have a bar you can  hang onto for this purpose. and lean forward almost sticking your butt out a little but and kickback your leg .. hence the name. 10 on each side and repeat for other side. do 3 sets.

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5. Side Hip Extension – lol I like to call this the dog peeing workout hahah … inappropriate? .. maybe lol. But your doing just that. On all fours, back arched your going to lift one leg up like a dog to a fire hydrant would and as you lower it back down, don’t lower it all the way and push it back up so therefor your not stopping in between each rep. 3 x 20

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6. Ball Hip Dips. – LOVE THIS … ok so grab a ball, lay flat on the floor so your in that first position shown. as you lift your hips up it should be an even slope. This (2nd pic) if your actual starting point. Position your feet onto the ball and roll your hips up (its going to feel awkward) but you basically will have a straight line in the air now, don’t dip your butt inwards, keep it squeezed and roll back to that 2nd pic, and repeat. 3 x 20

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sore yet??? =)

How much should I eat? (portion control)

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So measuring up portions can be tricky when people are constantly telling you to eat this and eat that. Or their telling you to have 4oz chicken…. Well that’s all fine and dandy if you have a food scale but lets get honest, most of ya’ll don’t have one. So how do you know how much if right for you personally? The average 4oz is fine but say a bodybuilder at 210lbs is going to need more than a young 20 year old girl at 130lbs…. so here are some basics when it comes to portions and knowing how much to eat for you.

Keep in mind portion and serving sizes are different too. Serving size is just a standard way they measure food. Portion is how much you actually pile on your place. Both are a part of weight loss and very important.

1. Close your hand into a fist. This usually amounts to anywhere around 1 cup depending on your hand. If you look at your spouses fist it may be bigger than yours, that’s because his/her body may require more calories and thus bigger portions.

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  • Veggies (portion is 2 fists worth (2 cups) ..but in reality you can eat as MUCH veggies as you want!!!)
  • Carbs – brown rice, sweet potato, cereals, quinoa, beans, oats, fruit.

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2. Open up your hand and just look at the palm. Depending on how big your hand is its usually around 3-5 oz size. This is your protein sizing. Turn your hand to the side, this is how thick your meat should be and or make up for the size if your piece of meat is thicker than your hand.. (you know… use common sense haha) ** ONLY the palm, no fingers included lol**

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  • Meats (chicken, turkey, game, tofu, steak, fish, eggs etc.)

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3. Now give yourself a thumbs up! =) (hee hee) this is your fats and dressings. Usually keep it at about a tablespoon.

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  • Almond/peanut butters
  • Salad dressings
  • Seasonings (I like Mrs. Dash – no salt! )
  • Sour Cream and Cream Cheese – if your trying to lose weight .. limit these.

4. Tip of your thumb is about a teaspoon.

  • oils
  • butters

Hope this helps for those of you without a scale or for when your out to eat and the restaurant gives you a HUGE serving …. just eat “your portion size” and take the rest home. You can have the rest at another time =)

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** Count your calories and macronutrients , don’t go over or under but get them as close to your goal as you can. Workout and be patient.. the rest will fall into place! YOU GOT THIS! =)

 

Stop making excuses

So I felt like this was something I needed to write because my boyfriend caught me cheating on my diet last night and what did I automatically do? .. Got defensive and started making excuses… We’re all human, we all do it to some extent the real thing is to understand why and to see what it will do in the long run, and to realize how important your goals are to you.

” The first step in achieving your goal, is to take a moment to respect your goal. Know what it means to you to achieve it.” Dwayne Johnson (The Rock)

 

 

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So everyone has done/said it. Evan I used to think some of these things and still try to justify something when I know I’m only sabotaging myself haha… … and made excuses for why I was doing what I was doing only to regret it later on … why??? . Its only human I think and its natural too, but with that being said, were going to actually stop and think of WHY we do this to ourselves and actually realize that what we’re telling ourselves are truly only one thing…. an excuse.

So here are some main ones I’ve heard and even said too …

  • I don’t have time : O my GOSH! Who does anymore? I said the same thing for many of years…. finally, my Jr year of college, 18 credits full time, working 2 jobs going from 4 am to 9 pm every day pretty much …. found the time. The key is to “find” the time, if you want it, you’ll find the time, just like you found the time to watch that favorite TV show. You have to learn to carve out time for the important things to you, start with those and then continue to do the less important things… like a to do list. Put it in your planner like its a conference for work or on your calendar so its there to remind you that it IS an priority …. you don’t have to workout for hours on end either, nor do you have  to go to  a gym. You can workout at home, take your kids to the park and workout while they play or even play with them. Say they ride their bike to the park, ride yours too, or jog by their side, you have to find ways to squeeze it in and pretty soon it will be one of the most important things you make time for! =)

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  • Its a special occasion! ……. yes it is! Maybe you’re at a wedding or a baby shower and everyone is celebrating and there is all this “not so healthy food” staring at you in the face. (Been there!) So think about it, just because its your birthday or someone else’s, doesn’t mean to over-do it… yea sure go ahead and have a piece of cake but keep in mind how you’re going to feel in the end if you do overdo it, and pig out all day with the excuse of “its a special occasion” … are you going to feel guilty the next day? Are you going to feel sick because your body isn’t used to foods like that anymore? Is it going to be harder for you tomorrow to get motivated to get your booty in the gym? Just take a step back and ask yourself what you want, what your goals are and if your going to let your food addiction take over and continue to make excuses for you….

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  • I don’t have motivation or I cant seem to get going:  yea it can be a little hard finding that one thing to get your butt kicked into gear, there are days when I don’t want to get out of bed and go to the gym, not even gonna lie, but then I realize what I’ve promised myself, what I’ve worked so hard for and how far I’ve come and I refuse to let the negative thoughts in mind take over and tell me otherwise. Plus I know deep down I will feel better if I just go do it instead of doing what again? Oh yeah making excuses not to go.

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  • Your young, I’m older it will be harder for me… you know what I have to say about that BLAH BLAH BLAH.. quit your bullshit. If you actually did some research, you’d come to find out that exercise is actually really good for older people (you should see how many grandpas and grandmas I have at my gym!!) How is it good you may ask? Well to start off, it helps with things like flexibility and muscle loss, along with preventing things like osteoporosis, arthritis, diabetes and soo much more. Plus the people I usually hear this from are like 40 years old… your not 90.. but if you were, I’d tell you the same damn thing. Yeah sure your metabolism slows as you age yes, but that doesn’t mean give up or don’t even try.

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  • If I deprive myself of this __”enter favorite food here”____ I’ll just eat more, or binge on it later. ….. ok so let me get this right…. you’re already planning on failing? Or are you just saying that so you can have your favorite fast food meal? This one hits home for me because I personally said this to myself ALL the time. When you actually read that sentence over again you start to realize how silly that sounds, your making a choice to eat whatever it is you want, its not like its a sacrifice, its not going to kill you to give up that Cold Stone or Taco Bell… your making it sound like its going to be the end of the world if you don’t get some junk food in your system. lol. Sure, hae a small treat, but no you don’t need one everyday, nor every week..

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  • I don’t want to go alone : Understandable, but who said you had to? See if your spouse will go with you, or even a friend who may be in the same boat… or even find that friend who DOES go to the gym all the time and see if you can go with them, they will probably be flattered and show you some great workouts to do to start out with. The buddy system is always nice because it keeps you going, it pushes you to go when you don’t want to. I know when I was going with a friend when I first started it helped because there were so many days when I didn’t want to go, but knowing in the back of my mind knowing she was going to be waiting for me there .. I didn’t want to A. let her down or bail on her… and B. knowing she had the same general goal, and she was doing it.. that means I could do it to …damnit!

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  • I’m too fat – ummm did you just hear the words that came out of your mouth? FIRST and foremost YOUARE NOT FAT- YOU HAVE FAT… you also have hair, are you hair? You also have eyelashes, and fingernails, and toes… are you any of those things? Nope! Your a real person with real feelings and a soul, you have insecurities, and accomplishments, and everything in between. So… first things first, stop calling yourself “fat” because you’re not making it any better by calling yourself names are you? Are you accomplishing anything by that? Honestly… … Next, just like the whole age excuse, having extra baggage isn’t an excuse to give up either. Sure it will be harder, but if it was easy everyone would be doing it. Start slow (depending how overweight you are).. things like walking (even if its to the end of the block and back) is going to better than doing nothing. Once you stop the self loathing, pity parties and possibly some self hate (sad to say)… decide to dig deep and realize where your at today, and how you’ve gotten to where you’re at. That’s when you’re going to either realize its time for a change or your going to just continue to be in the same rut you’ve been in for the past however many years. You have to make the decision and you have to change… you have to find that inner strength.

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  • I don’t know what I’m doing, or I feel like I look stupid : …..there comes a time where you just have to say screw everyone else lol… you have every right to be working out as the next person. Sure they may be skinnier, or fitter, or hell they may even be bigger than you. . . . EVERYONE has a right to make themselves a better version of themselves. I personally know the feeling of being intimidated by the gym, when I first started out I had a free week pass at 24 hour…and I hated it.. I hated the looks I got because I felt like the “fat” girl at the gym,  I hated all the mirrors everywhere staring at me reminding me of what I had let myself become. But in all honesty, I realize now that all those feelings I was having were more of my insecurities with myself. I seriously doubt that the fit girl running her little ass off cared if I was there, much less that I couldn’t keep up with her. Now! With that being said, I’m actually one of the fitter people at my gym now (amazing feeling when your realize that!!!) When I go to the gym, I see all kinds of people, and I have friends there too… I have a few younger girls that have just started off, and a couple old dudes with their knee high socks lol, but the point is, everyone is different, and everyone has different goals. You have to get it out of your mind that everything is a competition at the gym. I don’t care if the girl next to me is running slower or even faster, she’s at a different level and she has different goals. Same thing with the buff dude lifting weights… I will lift what I can lift and if it doesn’t measure up to your 50lbs dumbbells … well like I said before… screw you…. I’m here for me not you. < that’s the mindset you need.

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  • I had a busy/ crappy/ amazing day, I deserve a treat! : sure a treat once in a while is ok, but don’t let it always get the best of you. And you don’t always have to reward yourself with food either. Get a cute new outfit, or go get a pedicure… there are plenty of other ways to reward yourself than food. Think of what it took to get here, don’t sabotage it with a gigantic ice cream cone… Along with that, if you had a crappy day, its just going to be filled with guilt after you eat what your craving anyways… Done let your goal slip away because of frustration or anger.

 

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UPDATE: ….. setbacks wont stop me.

HAHA, so just a little update if your not friends with me on Facebook or don’t follow my instagram… New years hit, got a new trainer … was back at the gym doing my thing and prepping for the fitness competition still after all the holiday mumbo jumbo and the night before my birthday I got in a pretty bad car accident. I got t-boned on my passenger side, (thank god I didn’t have a passenger in that seat!) totaled my car, broke my first bone (my wrist) and had my first trip to the ER. whoo… my o my. Afterwards I thought I chipped my tooth because it was hurting to the extremes, turns out the accident just aggravated a root cannel I needed to get done … so there went some more money down the drain and it started to feel like u couldn’t catch a break since it had been 2 weeks and I hadn’t heard anything from my insurance about my car much less my medical stuff. And I still didn’t have a rental car….

After that, I kind of felt aggravated with myself because I’m the kind of person who likes to do things on her own. I’ve always been kind of independent that way. So with my boyfriend and everyone having to help me with simple little things I was feeling a little let down and just more nervous as to when I was going to be able to do all the things I did before. After a few meltdowns (usually over nothing or something very small) I realized my pain medication was making me depressed so I got off of those and that helped but I’m still jumpy when I see a car out of the corner of my eye while driving, but I know it will go away in time.

Finally insurance decided to help me out and get me a renal car (a tiny ass fiat 500… I live in Colorado and its the middle of winter people) but it was better than the rear wheel sports car they wanted to put me in right after it was a blizzard outside. They gave my money for my old car that was proclaimed a total loss.. and I went out searching for a new car. Thinking I found the car (craigslist – independent offer from the looks of the add). We met the guy looked at it, Evan (my boyfriend) being a mechanic could tell it had been wrecked but the owner said it was just small… So as I go to the bank the next day to pull out a loan I call the guy to make sure I spell his name right on the check… he said I have to go through his dealer Lada Auto Sales … (flag #1). If it was at a dealer, why didn’t the Craigslist state that and why did we meet somewhere instead of at the dealership?…. Then, his manager called me telling me there was going to be all these fees (Flag#2) which is one of the reasons we were looking on craigslist so we wouldn’t have those fees… and the guy that showed us the cars even said there were going to be none. So as I get the loan and everything set up I get this feeling in my gut then something is wrong… I tell Evan everything that’s been going on and the next day at work he pulls the Carfax. Turns out the car was a total loss vehicle and they fixed it up. So lie after lie, the guy calls me asking when Im going to come pick it up and I basically turn into a mother, chewing him out and asking him to explain himself lol….. he basically had nothing to say but “he didn’t lie” ***ahem…bullshit** and that he was going to pay the dealer fees …? stupid if you ask me. Evan called the dealership and talked to the manager and basically told him what was up and he said the same crap! …So we reported them to the BBB (Better Business Burro).

Here’s the real kicker …. when you pull out a loan from a bank for a car, you have to have full coverage insurance on that car…. you cant get insurance on a vehicle when its been a total loss…. so I would have been screwed either way. But ya know, they said what they were doing wasn’t illegal and that car had a Clean Title …. oye!

So after all that we decided ..just for peace of mind… to go through a dealership to find a car. So I came back to Toyota and started looking at Camry’s for the heck of it .. and I found a car! And I fricken love it!!! 2009, V6, fully loaded, leather and black interior, Red outside… its pretty=) After buying this car, turning in the peanut ( I called the fiat that because it was sooo small) I felt a weight lift. I (hopefully) get my cast off Wednesday .. and will probably have to do physical therapy. . . .

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I’ve been going to the gym and doing cardio and legs with my cast .. gotten some weird looks but I  don’t care.. hahaha. cant wait till I can start doing arms and back again….

So all in all, that’s whats been going on and why I haven’t had many posts since the beginning of the year… so as I get through all this, they will slowly start to increase more =)

Hope ya’ll are having a wonderful day!

Don’t loose your Motivation on Vacation!

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So just because this is supposed to be your “relaxing and calm” time to yourself or with the family doesn’t mean you can’t stay on track with your new and improved healthy lifestyle. Don’t get me wrong, relax by all means but where ever you go I’m sure there will be plenty of fun activities you can do that will be  form of exercise so you wont feel like you’ve “fallen off the wagon” when you get back home.

You probably are going to plan some activities anyways, why not make them a fun workout too. =)

  • The Beach– Go for a nice sunrise/sun set run or even walk. Swimming. Paddle boarding. Swimming with dolphins. Deep sea diving, take a surfing lesson. Do some sunrise yoga. Set up a volleyball net and meet some new people. Frisbee. fishing (if allowed). Even building a sand castle will burn calories! Canoeing. Be a kid and go jump some waves.
  • The Mountains– Go for a hike, a run, or walk. Camping. Dirt biking. If its winter, Skiing, snowboarding or even sledding. Zip-lining. rock climbing. Canyoneering. (I like how I’m from Colorado and I can’t think of more….. LOL)
  • The City– Explore, walk, run, jog. If it’s a busy city they might have a race going on the week you’re there.

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Explore online different things in the destination you choose that you and/or family could do the week of your vacation. There is a few sites out there that are geared toward more physical activity and you can usually narrow down what you want to do by location and how many people will be with you.

  • Adventure finder.com
  • Groupon.com
  • afar.com

Plan ahead and look at different resorts. Do you want a resort with a gym? a pool? Some resorts have classes you can even take.

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