I DID IT! My Journey through my First Fitness Bikini Competition

wpid-img_20141014_041818.jpg

Sorry this post has taken me so long to write, I’ve been going through a little soul searching after my show (which I plan on doing another post on that next … but its been an interesting ride , that’s for sure! )

BUT anyways…. Well…. I DID IT!!! And holy crap was it hard! Probably one of the hardest things I’ve done so far, and funny thing is I cant wait to do another!!!

How was it? Really fun yet stressful and exhausting too. But it was all worth it, wanna know why???? Because I placed Top 5 in both the classes I entered in!!! =)

wpid-img_20141012_002413.jpg wpid-img_20141011_133817.jpg

So going into this competition, quite honestly I wasn’t expecting to “win” anything because in my mind, I had already won with myself losing 85 pounds. And my thought process was if I won something , then hell, more power to me! Ideally my goal was to make it to a competition and I had done just that.

wpid-img_20141012_170635.jpg

Back stage during the show, fixing up spray tans and getting oily and ready to step on stage I was actually pretty calm. I have a  major in theatre so the stage isn’t really scary to me it was more of the omg I just don’t want to trip on my heals or forget my poses/transitions (which I did  hahaha).

wpid-img_20141011_131236.jpg

During first callouts, when they called my number I almost remember looking down at my number to make sure that was in fact the number they were calling. As I walked forward the look on my coaches face was priceless, as he nudged my posing coach and automatically grabbed his camera. That moment right there is one of the reasons I’m going to do another show in the future. You could see that he was very proud and excited that they called my number, especially since it was my first show. Then the second class I entered in they had called out 4 numbers and then who’s do they call next? MINE! so I made 1st callouts in both the classes I entered in! (first call outs a pretty much placing the top 5) – which was funny at the time because I didn’t realize that’s how it worked so I thought they were just calling my number to call my number hahaahah.

wpid-img_20141011_223949.jpg wpid-img_20141011_133729.jpg

As time goes on, and people start coming in the door for the show, we all start talking about the treats we brought for afterwards. Some made cupcakes and such…. I made a little something called slutty brownies. what are slutty brownies you may ask? Amazing!! …one layer of cookie dough, one layer of Oreo (I used cookie dough Oreos) and a layer of brownie. yummmmmmmmmmm and boy were they good.. but they made me sick =(

As the “show” started, (they do pre judging in the morning and then a “show with music and everything towards the night for an audience) My boyfriend and his family came, my aunt and my father came to support me… unfortunately bikini goes on stage last so I got to mingle with them a little before and during the show and you could tell they all were very proud of me.

wpid-img_20141012_100526.jpg wpid-img_20141012_152711.jpg

My aunt mentioned going to dinner afterwards so I’m back stage thinking about food haha, Evans dad was randomly taking pictures of the “hot” girls and my dad was joking with Evan the entire time about needing to workout , or maybe just needing a beer instead haha. After the show, besides eating 3 of my brownies, a red velvet brownie another competitor made and a macaroon…  we went to Hacienda ( I decided Mexican food was much needed) and I downed 2 chicken enchiladas and a chicken taco… topped with chili and cheese and everything haha. Then when we got home I had a few Oreos dipped in almond butter, a sandwich, and some fig nutons. By this time I was definitely in a food coma.

wpid-img_20141012_123936.jpgwpid-img_20141010_171851.jpg

The next morning, sine the family has made bbq ribs in front of me like 3 times during this prep I told Evan that’s what I wanted for dinner so he prepared that all day. In the mean time I ate a pumpkin pop tart, a small bowl of spaghetti, 3 waffles with a massive amount of fruit on top and by this time I was sick. .. And by the time the ribs and bbq was read it was all I could do to down one fricken rib.. I felt bad since he cooked all day and I couldn’t even bring myself to eat any of it….

wpid-img_20141012_172152.jpg

quite honestly I wasn’t planning on eating all the things I did, I wanted to still keep my hard work at bay but since I basically had some issues with binge eating before (which is what my next post is going to be about ) it was almost like I couldn’t stop. It almost got to the point of embarrassment with how much food I consumed and I wasn’t proud of it at all, yet I still kept eating. . . . as the water weight came back on and some extra weight as well from all the crappy food .. I started feeling lethargic, unmotivated and questioning if this competition was a good idea …

wpid-img_20141011_154538.jpg

As these last few weeks pressed on a kept in touch with my coach and telling him how much I’ve gained was a wake up call in itself. I told him I needed more goals to shoot for because a part of me had been prepping for sooooo long for this competition that I almost felt like a “what’s next” moment and didn’t know exactly where to go. But with that being said, I’ve learned my lesion and man , oh man, cardio is SO much harder when you have crap in your system .. it literally does NOTHING to fuel you for a intense workout.

wpid-img_20141011_155716.jpg

So all in all, I had a blast, was it worth it still after the aftermath of binging. yes, because I’m still learning to love myself obviously.. and I’m still working on processing how I see myself as well… I know I’m not perfect, no one is. Its your choice to either learn and grow from certain screw ups .. or you can let them overpower and consume you. But untimely its all up to you.

wpid-img_20141018_060031.jpg wpid-img_20141014_144012.jpg

 

 

 

 

Advertisements

Surviving the Holidays!

healthy2

So .. holidays is what got me a little last year when I was watching my weight. With Thanksgiving and Christmas around the corner, you’re bound to be around a few sweets and some “not-so-healthy” choices.  So I’m going to give ya a couple tips on how to survive the holidays when your either on a specific diet or just trying to watch your weight. =)

healthy

Its all about having a plan!

  • Know what’s being served- whether that means a few extra workouts through the winter, or just smaller portions of you favorites, have a plan before you go into it blindsided. My aunts are super nice and they understand what I’m trying to accomplish so they do their best to have a few options I can have. I have even just randomly asked what they are planning to make so then if it doesn’t fit into my diet, I can bring something or have a plan for that. If your family gets offended that your not necessarily eating something they prepared, don’t take it personally. Your making these choices for your health, not theirs. Usually people will look at you weird the first time, but as you continue on, they just don’t ask anymore. …. and if its a huuuge ordeal, no offence to them, but that usually means they are insecure with their diet and eating habits and don’t like for others to make it obvious. . . . (which in all reality, you aren’t…. unless you telling your family how all that gravy on their turkey isn’t good for them….. which by the way DONT! .. if they want help, advice, or an opinion, they will ask you for them… otherwise keep some thoughts to yourself lol.)
  • Use a smaller plate- when you start dishing up your food, yes you can still have some of your favs, but first load up a plate of veggies, salad and fruits… then add the other stuff. Don’t over-do it on the other stuff either. But if you do this right, you should be pretty full already from your veggies and fruit. =)… Or skip the appetizers unless they are fruits and veggies.

healthy4

  • Eat slower and savor each bite – haha I have trouble with this one because I tend to devour foods, but if you actually sit there and focus on the foods, the texture and the taste, you’ll notice you fill up longer because your actually focusing on it instead of mindless eating. . . .
  • Offer to bring something– This way you’ll know there will be at least an healthy option there and you wont be completely screwed if there isn’t anything healthy. …
  • Remember the bottom line- yes, its the holidays, enjoy it. But don’t make it an excuses to eat everything in sight because your diet doesn’t start till New Years .. that’s just ridiculous…. Start now and you wont have such a hard time. Holidays / weight gain/ and New Years Resolutions do not need to go together. Sure you can have a goal for New Years to “loose some extra pounds” or “be healthier” but that was probably on your resolution last year… am I correct??? Don’t give up on this year just yet! =)

healthy 3

How to Stop Overeating!

angel Oh yeah, that little angel and devil that sits on your shoulder when a brownie is staring at you in the face! “Eat it!” says the devil…. “No! your watching your weight!” says the angel… then your having temptations, guilty thought of devouring the entire pan and …well .. it can lead to disaster! So we have gotten really good at labeling foods good or bad… and then guilt usually follows the bad and sometimes joy follows the good but sometimes when we deprive ourselves of a treat all the time and don’t indulge every once in a while it can almost put you on a set back for weight loss too. (No, I’m not saying eat the whole pan of brownies. But sure, have one if you haven’t had sweets in like 2 weeks. But then step away from the brownies afterwards haha) Also we as humans are hardwired to eat for emotional reasons too. Bet ya didn’t know that! It has to do with the love from a mother when she breastfeeds you when your an infant, we associate food with love and comfort. So try to break free of those habits, I know its going to be a challenge at first but its do-able, also we like to talk ourselves out of certain foods too… and we try to justify what were eating. (I still do it from time to time.. not so much anymore, it was more when I was trying to give up dairy products…. damn cheese!) ***Here are some tips on how not to over eat or to take control of your overeating: And believe me we all have heard the excuses …

” Avocados and Almonds are “good fats” so therefor I can eat all I want”………

Wrong! Yes, they are very high in the good fats with their nutrients and awesome benefits. But if you have too many or consume way more than the daily amount you might as well just had the fricken brownie!!! There are 9 calories of every gram of fat and 30% of your daily calories should come from fats ( preferably the good kind) So yes your want your good fats (Monounsaturated and polyunsaturated ) but lets not fill the plate with them k. Usually about 5% per small meal (if you were eating 6 small meals) or 10% per meal if your eating 3 meals.

pop fats good 1

“Popcorn is good for you! Eat it all the time”

Nope! Just because it says low fat or low carb doesn’t mean its a free food to just eat all you want. When companies remove fat to make then “low-fat” they often replace that with sugar.. and its usually fake sugar to boot… so just be careful when you start snacking. Its ok to have like a cup full but don’t inhale the entire bag.

Eating for happiness –

I mean, yes eating should make you happy, but the kinds of food that you think are making you happy are most likely only hurting you. don’t get me wrong I can enjoy a treat here and there but most people want desert every night after dinner. Or my trouble is I crave sugar at night like around 9pm… so instead of going after that sorbet like I usually would I eat a spoonful of almond butter, or snack on some fruit, yeah its still kinda high in sugar and probably not the best for right before bed, but it satisfies the craving and isn’t a blizzard from DQ.

“I have PMS and I’m going to kill someone if I don’t get my sugar and salt!!!”
HA! been there! The hormone serotonin regulates your weight and mood and is actually slowed down during this time of the month. Complex carbs and protein will inhibit the production. So snacks like oatmeal, maybe a little chicken, rice or pasta might be your best bet.

pms tv

Glued to the tube-  Don’t watch TV, sit on the computer, play on your phone or ipad…. JUST DONT. you wont realize how much your eating (this is still a habit of mine! ) If you do do this, make sure you only have the proper serving size in front of you and not the whole box! When you actually sit down at the table and enjoy your snack or craving, it will hit satisfaction a lot quicker where as if your watching TV or something its almost mindless eating because your not focused on the food your focused on the TV.

Don’t have 2nds-  If it was a good meal, sit and enjoy it. And if it was a good meal, it should have all the nutrients your body needs and is craving so you shouldn’t be even hungry for 2nds. Your meals should consist of protein, veggies and a healthy fat, possibly a starch here and there. I’ve herd of some people just skipping dinner and going straight to desert to “save calories” and … haha I just cant believe people think that’s “saving calories” . . . Yea sure your apple pie is 400 calories (just a estimate) and dinner is around 600.. but which do you think will be more satisfying to your body and health? (not satisfying to your tastes buds, I said health) Start to think about where your calories come from, what you actually putting into your body and be aware of the damages you can cause. No I’m not saying I don’t enjoy pie (actually I’m honestly not that big if a fan hah) but think of your body as a car. You wouldn’t put regular gas into a diesel truck, it wont run right, and it will most likely break down (I think…. idk I’m not a mechanic but I’m sure it wont be good ok!) That’s how your body is, if you give it the right nutrients it needs, you wont have cravings and you wont want to eat all the bad things… actually the more you change your diet to a clean eating kind of diet the less you’ll even want the crap foods. The other day someone put on their Facebook that it was 7/11 free Slurpee day and I got to thinking .. “gosh! when was the last time I had a Slurpee?? That doesn’t even sound good to me!” I honestly think it would be WAY too sweet for me now. . . and it probably would make my body ” run like crap” same as the car analogy. wow sorry kinda went of on a rant with that one…

” I ate healthy all week so I’m going to pig out over the weekend”

What?! Seriously?! You just did so well, your on the right track and now your basically going to counteract all the hard work you put into living a healthier lifestyle… I get going out and having fun, but don’t do it every weekend. Think of how depressed your going to make yourself if you did all that hard work and come time to step on the scale on Monday and your weight goes up all because of your fling with food and partying over the weekend. So with the math involved a pound of fat is 3500 calories so unless you plan ok working you ass off after your “party extravaganza” Id just focus on healthy eating around 98% of the time and indulge in maybe one drink here and there, don’t go all out and have the 3 beers with a palate of nachos and a huge hangover breakfast in the morning, you’ll regret it, trust me I know from experience. party Find supportive people- Negative people suck, that’s all I have to say. Now sometimes its not that their negative either, but maybe just not as well knowledged, or maybe they just don’t care about their health (believe it or not there are those people out there), or maybe they don’t know any better because that’s how they were raised. But I’ve seen it and I’ve heard it. “who orders a salad when they go out to eat” or maybe you want to take some healthy snacks like carrots and hummus on a road trip instead of chips and soda… So people don’t mind, some people look at it as weird. Find those people that will be proud of you for eating a healthy snack or even excited that you’re willing to share. The more healthy choices I make around my friends though, it seems to sometimes wear off on them, and that makes me happy 🙂 So far I’ve introduced things like almond butter to my boyfriend and even gotten his best friend to try some tofu, small changes… but I still love it!

Eat Often, Smaller meals – Having smaller meals more often will not only help you stay satisfied longer and fuller but it will also boost your metabolism! YAY! … Instead of 3 large meals, split it up into 6 smaller meals or even 4 or 5 meals. Find what works for you! Base your meals around every 4 hours. If you also munch on things that are full of fiber you’ll stay fuller longer as well. So pack some dried fruit, unsalted nuts or even a granola bar in your purse, glove compartment in your car, or even your desk at work. break “But I don’t eat breakfast.” Well guess what! You do now! If you want to lose weight you need to! Breakfast is like your boost for the day, would you rather have a boost or feel drained. The whole point of breakfast is to “break” your “fast” .. Break-fast from sleeping. You’ve just went (hopefully) around 8 hours without any food so your breaking your fast from the night … make sure you make the breakfast count. Think smoothie, fruit, oats, protein, ..brain food!!! None of this Denny’s grand slam with greasy bacon and 4 white flour pancakes covered in sugar laden strawberry syrup and enough whipped cream for 3 people…. (for some reason American is used to having dessert for breakfast).. But make sure you eat breakfast and make it count people.